one lonely success

my blog is broken.

thanks to everyone who called/emailed/text’d about how shitty my hosting service has been treating me lately. i’ve sent them a very stern email and when you get a stern email from me….well then you know you’ve just been sternly spoken with.

hopefully shit gets straightened out soon.

also two years ago i was a sad motherfucker and these days it’s such a contrast to how open, free and breezy life feels that i cant help but bring up posts from the past.

here’s an entry from this day in 2005. i was living alone in a 3 bedroom condo b/c i liked having the illusion that i was living a grown-up’s life even though i was feeling more alone than ever before. liz and i were friends and hanging out on a near-daily basis; we would meet for coffee in the mornings and drown ourselves in each other’s craziness.

i was such an emo bitch in those days, yet i wouldnt trade them for the world.

some may be dissapointed that it’s not a beautiful, sunny socal day.

instead, there’s a uniform blanket of grey clouds draped over the sky. it would be inaccurate to say that it is rainy–some would say it’s misty. it’s a nice change to finally have the weather agree with your mood. no condecending sun mocking you for being sad or taunting you to go outside when all you want to do is hide under the blankets. i sat outside for a while and it’s completely calm. there’s hardly a breeze and the mist is falling silently. i’m going to enjoy this perfectly beautiful weather on an otherwise imperfect day.